well

there seems to be a trend here...one post every four or five months?

i should post more often...

but maybe i'll just go to sleep...but maybe not...

i still do most of my writing in books and journals. i can't seem to get into the blogger state of mind. i've been writing more recently, in coffee shops and whatnot...and the thought occurred to me that if i wanted to publish any of this "writing" it would have to be typed up and would it just be easier if i started typing in the first place and cut the hand writing out completely but i said no silly no...

where did november come from or moreover where did october go? i've done nothing so time should be standing still... except when i breathe and see and think and speak and sleep and eat (a lot, i've gained 10 pounds apparently) so THAT is where october went, it went into my hips (and i think september snuck in there too when i wasn't looking) fatty fat fanny mcfancy over here...


...i'm having a love affair with ellipses...

i think i use them so much because my thoughts always trail off into my mind where i can't hear/find the words to express them on a page...they melt into some kind of vision or feeling...a knowing that i can't quite seem to verbalize...there's something in the distance, if only i could make it out in this haze, this fog of my brain